My Gift To You Album

My dear sisters and brothers in Christ

It’s been months I am away from my blog,
I can’t believe that I’ve been missing wonderful articles
from most my blogger friends
and also my intimate journey with God that I’d like to share.

First of all, please allow me to introduce you my first CD Album of My Gift To You,
which was released in December 2010.

About MGTY Album
This first album is my appreciation of my thankfulness
for all that I have and for what I am now..,
and this album is dedicated to my lovely family –
the most precious gift from the Lord,
my dearest husband, and my little angels.

It was indeed started from a dream,
yes, a dream of praising and singing to our Lord.
I wish to share with my family and friends,
that dreams do come true,
with prayers and faith to be His true disciple….
There’s nothing that He cannot do.

A good friend of mine once told me
“Do it only to Glorify His name,
no doubt He will make it happen…,
in His beautiful time”.

You can visit MGTY blog to hear songs sampler and more detailed information.

My Gift To You Album
As or me and my house, we will serve The Lord. (Joshua 24:15)

God Bless,
Monika Dewi


How many times have I heard my daughter kiss me good night and saying ‘May your Guardian Angel watch over you’

How sweet it sounds to my ear… and indeed, the Guardian Angels watches us, not only during our sleeps, but every single second of our lives.

A week ago, me and my kids went vacation in Jakarta, well I knew that it would be hard since my hubby wasn’t with us, but we ended up going anyway. We did have fun, I got to finish some errands I had planned to do there, so.. it was great! Until my kids got sick with high fever, and Arl was admitted to the hospital. My heart ached, and so stressful. Praying was the only thing I could do, and I am thankful for all helps from my families and friends back in Singapore. Then one last day we were scheduled to fly back to Singapore, I got sick, yup.. it was a sudden and still blurry moment I’ve experienced myself. I was in the ward with Arl and Gav, suddenly couldn’t feel my arms and legs, then cramping all over, I had short of breath and couldn’t even pray with my mouth, no word came out. I was terribly scared.. I thought “this is it!” and with all my heart prayed for forgiveness and may my guardian angel watch over me.

I shouted, word by word, to the doctor at the Emergency Room, “can’t breathe! stomach cramps! can’t feel my arms n legs” and saw the nurse put on some O2 and IV on my hand. Then, suddenly I felt my right thumb moving, good that I had my phone with me, so I text my hubby “come here now”, then text my friends in faith of St.Cecilia Family Choir to pray for me now, I needed instant help from above…

About 30min later, my dad came, with my SIL, things were better… I received some messages from friends saying that I should not worry, they all were praying to heavens for me.. not for long, I could then explain to my family what I felt and how it happened. Praise the Lord for He is good.
He never leaves me, He sent all angels to watch over me, He sent my friends, my family, to pray for me too. May God bless them abundantly!

So, yeah, I was warded at the same room with Arl, my hubby came, then all of us stayed in a cozy room in the hospital 🙂 yay, so happy we’re together again 🙂

We’re back now, and can’t stop thanking the Lord for His speedy help 🙂 Indeed His help was just in time, not too early, and never too late. Praise the Lord!

I joined the church choir again after few weeks of absent. I remember that when I was at Jakarta, my hubby text me and said ‘hey, you got a new choir member ya? He is cantoring just now. He has a beautiful amazing voice!” Then I thought “hmmm.. who was he yaa? Nic must have recruited new member for cantoring then”

So I asked some friends at the choir to know who is the new member. Some people weren’t coming to mass for few weeks, so couldn’t tell. Then I asked Korene, she said “uhm..yeah, while you were at Jakarta? It was Colin, and Tim, no new person cantoring, I don’t think”
‘Oh I see, hmm strange” I thought. Then Korene added “remember I told you, some angels are with our choir! It was an angel that your hubby saw and listened to!”

The next day I told Nic what Gary saw and heard at the pulpit weeks ago, I assumed it was Colin since Gary didn’t mention it was a child cantoring, but still, he must have recognized Colin for he has been cantoring for some times..
Then Web said “I don’t need many people tell me this, only one  feedback is enuf, it is The Holy Spirit”, “This is what we’re looking for, not just to sing, but bring the good news and touch everyone’s heart” Nic added

Maybe it was Colin for other people, but totally different person with different voice to my hubby’s ear and eyes.
I thank the Lord for His grace, to send His angel to sing beautifully amazing to my hubby.. I believe Gary missed spending time and attending mass with Him since he usually has to take care of our toddler during the mass.. last week he really was having “me-time with God” Praise the Lord!
Colin, He has chosen you to spread good news to others, may the Lord uses you all the time as His loving instrument to touch others, and may your Guardian Angel watch over you. Amen!

only for His glory

How many times did I try to look for answers… How often did I struggle with uncertainty… How long have I been waiting for good news…
How hard did I knock myself out to run away from my problems… How many times did I fail from my own judgments..

how many times.. how many times.. how many times I searched for a way out.. oh this is just never ending puzzle

not only that I lost hopes, but I was distress, heart-broken, and full of disappointment..
the illness, insecurity, job matters, family problems, ..
yes, I needed help!

until one day, while we were serving songs at the mass, when I was extremely weary, I knell down , went to a quiet moment inside, felt my heart pounding softly, surrendered to my Lord, and selfishly said  “I have done so much Lord, please show me a way out”

That day there were only few rows occupied by us – the choirs, we thought that we should give full force to be heard by the congregation, and just like the other weeks, we tried our best to serve the Lord.

Then we sang the  “Servant Song”, conducted by Joanna that Saturday ..What do you want of me, Lord? Where do you want me to serve you? Where can I sing your praises? I am your song. Jesus, Jesus, You are the Lord. Jesus, Jesus You are the way..

Mouthing the song I closed my eyes and shed tears, there I felt a friend tapping my back and calmly whispered, twice,  “You’re alright, …you are alright” I looked behind since I thought my choir friend saw me tears and kindly comforting me, but … it wasn’t any of them,  they were all giving their full hearts and voices to sing, … then, I realized, … it was Jesus. It was all His promises that kept me going.

so how could I finally find a way out? only through JESUS.
What is it that He cannot do?
Just holding onto Him, and I will be alright!

Here we are now, having our new home blessed with brothers and sisters, with  so much gladness and thankfulness, so we could feel the peace and love, in our home.

As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord (Joshua 24:15)

note for Jo: I finally found the word of how I felt when you were conducting, it was ‘gloriously fulfilling’

where is your faith?

It’s been a month for neglecting my blog :(, and I’m so glad to be back. Busy? No time to share? or having dryest moment-attacked in life?

So much excuses to run away from the fact that Jesus Himself comes and invites us to share His love, in every second of our life.

I’ve been a Thomas back and forth and been circled with fears, worries, and doubts. However, God patiently drenched me with His love, through my friends and loved ones. I remember vividly back on Easter eve, the time when I was in downslope time, wasn’t feel ready to celebrate His victory- to die on the cross and to raise from the death to save us from our sins. I asked in my silent prayer, “I know my cross in this world is nothing compared to You Lord, but it’s been too heavy these days…” Then, on the day of our choir practice, He sent a word from a good brother for me to realize that He didn’t and never leave me. “So, you alright?” That was the very word that I felt His presence.

Weeks had past..I’ve been faced with hopeless situations, again…! overwhelmed with fears and worries that I would never get through. Everyday was an empty hope! I had no more strength.. I only could pray..and pray.. and hoping that He will show me a way out! an instant way out!
Then one day I had this irritating whisper “No hope! God won’t help you, you have to fight yourself!” recognizing that it wasn’t God’s voice, I jumped out from my absentmindedness and prayed “Oh Lord, my God, take me under Your wings, do what you think is best for me, I will follow”

I was unwell for about a week so I had to miss the church and sing with the choir. However I felt stronger each day from peaceful dreams I had with Him =)
I guess He wanted me to lay back, to step out from this hectic life, to enjoy the love from my family, and to experience the privilege of His gentleness and love..

I’m thankful for being unwell.. and thankful to be back again. Last Saturday I received my ‘hello’ again from Him when we sang the Seek Ye First song.. and again in the homily from Fr.Robertus “Do not worry, for I am the bread of life”. Before I went to bed, He greeted me again through my daughter through her bed-time story about Jesus when He spoke to the howling wind and the steep-pitched waves, “Where is your faith?”.


Happy Easter

..Your sacrifice oh Lord.. bearing the cross for us all..
It gives a victorious smile to us Lord..

would like to wish all my family and friends a Happy Easter,
May God’s love be with us always

It had been weeks our choir practicing for the Easter Vigil mass, felt so glad that we made it through with glorious and joyful celebration for everyone..
my thanks to my family, and my friends in faith, sisters and brothers, .. not to mention all the children who were lovingly excited and sung very well to God

May the Holy Spirit always shines upon us..and may we be able to always praise You with songs..now and forever..

I will sing, Lord.. I will always sing…

Give Thanks

..told my hubby about how I felt last Saturday at the mass.. “He came and touched me!”.., started from our angel Kristen cantoring for the first time, the beautiful Homily from Fr.Anthony, then this amazing ‘Majesty’ from our Father and the Holy Spirit showered to us when Nic sang ‘The Prodigal Son’ song. Oh! I can’t even remember how beautiful the song was, I couldn’t even join the choir sing the chorus as well.. It was this feeling of being so much LOVED …OVERJOYED! …

Shared with Nic and told him how he had brought us to this joyful and Holy moments.. he said “It wasn’t me! It was all HIM” How humble and at the same time how lucky he is, ..to be His trusted instrument and a blessed vessel to His people..  “That’s what I always pray and ask Him for , so He can use me, and all the cantors, as His vessel to His people”, he added.

I can’t agree more! I surely was touched by Kristen cantoring the Psalms. Not only the angelic voice she has, but also her humbleness in singing the song which, for a second, healed my past wounds and surrendered to our Lord.

I did ask my hubby of how I felt abandoned weeks ago, and why He had never come and spoke to me again, “Where were You when I needed You, Lord?” I often asked.

Then he said, “there is time that you feel overjoyed, you feel His presence and you hear His voices, but then, in your dryest moment, when you thought He was gone, well.., He was not! It was the time when you are already secured in Him, ‘He is all yours’, so you need to move on, carry your bigger cross, and PRAY even more, pray for everyone, our family, our friends, ..everyone..”, “to me, the more we are closer to Him, the more that we need to pray in carrying our own crosses”, he added.

Lord Jesus, I thank you for Your presence, I felt overjoyed. However, I realized that this doesn’t mean that ‘it was the only time You are here with me!’
You never leave me even in my dryest moment in life. That is the time for me to even search deeper , and listen more peacefully, and more confidently walk in Your path.

Thank You for people around me, my hubby and family who always love and pray for me.. and now, my choir friends who always help me to never give up on You!.. Jesus, You never tired of giving me friends, anywhere I am, to show that Your love is greater than anything. I give my thanks to You, Lord, for Your endless LOVE.

…for my lovely hubby and family,
and my friends…


His promise was real

Where was I in the past few weeks… bottom of the sea… was feeling unsure.. unsecured.. down the slopes..

A blessing encouragement I received from Joanna the other day

“…even in our dryest moments… even when we don’t feel Him there… He IS!  Search deeeep, in the quietness of your heart, He is there. Always there, waiting for you to spend some time with Him. For Him to shower and drench you in HIS love.
When He’s all quiet, it doesn’t mean He’s not there, my dear. Jesus too went through a dry, empty period. May this Lent be a period of grace. The grace to find the ultimate peace, God’s peace, which the world can NEVER give…”

Maintenant, je suis de retour à la piste!

alrite..  He sure reads my blog too 🙂 and now He’s talking 🙂 I am so overjoyed! He’s opening a path for me, … I can see His footprint to easily be followed.. He’s answering all my questions and doubts through the people around me… He touched my heart through His beautiful works.. What is it that He cannot do!?? .. Everything I asked for, He always gives! and simply done only through prayers … just like the most people are saying ‘just pray and He will do the rest’.
..indeed.. He is and He will always do..

Matthew 11:28
“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest”

His promise was real …

JanjiMu Tuhan (God’s promise)